Struggling Days

So this morning isn't a very cheery one, it isn't a bad one either...simply just not motivated. I have spent so much time helping others and my son was the last of that bunch and I decided that I will put me first a little and get myself together because If I am not good for myself than I am not good for anyone else right??
I cannot believe how much I have lost of myself over this time, I neglected myself so much. It is grueling and takes a bit of an emotional toll on me on this journey back to finding me. Last 5 months of dentist/doc appointments and surgeries....6 weeks of PT...UGH...and now the commitment to weight loss...It seems like it is always something but I want to be the best that I can be for those I love and especially me not that I see that I deserve that. I am worth that. Everyone struggles in life and right now this would be my struggle.
I refuse to be a Debbie Downer...I have had enough of those days I want to try a different route. LOL
I have Faith and I know things will work out it's a matter of when. I am thankful to look forward to all the good things that are coming. I am working diligently on my book and hoping to finish it in time for a contest. I hope to inspire at least one person in the world with this book to never give up. The fight can be hell but I know I was strong enough to handle them...because here I still am.
....and will continue to be.