struggling

Hi lovelies,

I just joined this website and am excited to help others and recieve support myself. I am really struggling with my depression and eating disorder again. I was doing so well a few weeks ago and was really determined to reocver and then i got super depressed and stopped eating again.

*This may be triggering so do continue to read if you are triggered easily*

I have been eating maybe 500 cals a day and taking laxatives and diet pills. I know what I am doing is not okay. I just feel like I need control right now and I am determined to be underweight!! I finally meet with my therapist tomorrow whom I havent talked to since May so hopefully that goes well!