struggle to make my wife feel secure

My first priority and step is bringing my wife to meet my mother for long time I have hid her and have lied so much I want to do that. I never listened to my wife and got help which destroyed me and her it's hard on her and she is staying strong and supporting me I hope i can start giving her a normal life without lies and feel more secure in this relationship. I feel that would greatly improve me from lying by making the right choices and listening if I truly care for my wife and loved ones it is about time I try to show it. So I how things get better and I continue on the right path. I know if I listen to my wife it is only for my well being. I feel so ashamed what I have put her through the lying and hiding her weighs heavy I made do menu bad choices I hour for once I can make the right one.