Struggle

Every day it is a struggle. I have to force myself to go out when I need to. When I do, I am anxious and frequently have panic attacks. I'm having trouble feeling safe anywhere. I'm exhausted. I'm so drained. I fall asleep, but have such bad nightmares that I don't stay asleep. 
Having trouble thinking clearly. My husband has been screaming at me for no reason. I can't focus on anything. I have been asked out several times by a friend who is going through a divorce. i am also friends with his wife. At least I had the sense to not get messed up with that. 
Other than that I can't make my mind up about anything. I have decisions to make, but too confused to make them.