strong women

I'm skipping around between support groups and peoples journals and admiring how much strength and support we all share here. It makes me proud and amazed to see how much we have all been through and how we all come here to get help to pick up the pieces of our lives and keep going. You're all amazing beautiful women and I am happy that I get to be motivated by such strong women.
I remember those first few weeks after I lost Sophia and I can't even believe I survived it. It was the single worst pain I have ever felt and I wouldn't even wish that on the one and only person in the world I hate, or even the doctors that I believe caused my baby's death. I would rather pierce my eyelids with a nail gun than ever ever go through that again and reading new posts from angel moms makes my heart ache. I know exactly what they're feeling, I remember that feeling of shock and disbelief and agony and guilt. I wish I could show them how it heals, I wish I could just reach out and take their pain away. But I know that they're going to be ok because I have seen so many women here on DS go through hell and get back up and survive it.
I just love you all. Thank you for the inspiration and the laughter and for making me feel normal even when everyone around me thinks I have finally lost my mind. <3 <3