Stress and Christmas
It has been an emotional couple of weeks. I am so glad that Tiina is doing so well. On Wednesay night, I went to my second support group meeting. It was okay but I will have to wait and see how the next 4 go. I probably won't know if it is going to help until the end of the 6 weeks.
Today was stressful. My son Andrew is a writer - graphic novels and scripts etc. He has had a manager in LA for awhile but, although a lot of producers have been positive about his work, he hasn't made a breakthrough. Today he spoke with a couple of agents. I was antsy all day. I really don't handle stress well at all. Any little thing can put me over the edge. By 8 o'clock, he had not called so we called him. He was waiting for another call but did call back later. The interview went really well and it looks as though he will have an agent soon.
So we wait. On the upside, my granddaughter and SIL have tickets to come here for the Christmas holidays. Our family will be together - Lisa will be with us in spirit. But it won't be the same without our panicky last minute shopping, her stuffing our Christmas stocking full of socks, our excitement over the menu for Christmas dinner, and her excitement as Cevyn opens her gifts. Last Christmas is a bit of a blur. We 'celebrated' at our son's home. We opened gifts, ate turkey but I felt robotic. We were still in shock. I am determined to have the happiest Christmas possible - for Cevyn and for Lisa, because that is what she would want.
Today was stressful. My son Andrew is a writer - graphic novels and scripts etc. He has had a manager in LA for awhile but, although a lot of producers have been positive about his work, he hasn't made a breakthrough. Today he spoke with a couple of agents. I was antsy all day. I really don't handle stress well at all. Any little thing can put me over the edge. By 8 o'clock, he had not called so we called him. He was waiting for another call but did call back later. The interview went really well and it looks as though he will have an agent soon.
So we wait. On the upside, my granddaughter and SIL have tickets to come here for the Christmas holidays. Our family will be together - Lisa will be with us in spirit. But it won't be the same without our panicky last minute shopping, her stuffing our Christmas stocking full of socks, our excitement over the menu for Christmas dinner, and her excitement as Cevyn opens her gifts. Last Christmas is a bit of a blur. We 'celebrated' at our son's home. We opened gifts, ate turkey but I felt robotic. We were still in shock. I am determined to have the happiest Christmas possible - for Cevyn and for Lisa, because that is what she would want.
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What a gifted son you have! Hoping he gets that big break soon! So good to hear your family will be together for the holiday and your resolve to making it the best it possibly can be. I applaud you and I know Lisa is so proud of you. Yes, she will most definitly be there!! Love and hugs, Teri.
Hope everything works out well for your son and as mothers of course we are wondering and glad you made the call to find out. As far as the holidays go... Lisa will be there and yes, we are trying to learn how to create new memories with the strands of memories of holidays past woven throughout. I think if we can simplify and stay healthy those are two keys for a holiday that can be celebrated and not just endured. That is my wish for myself and all the precious moms here. Gentle care to you and a hug too. Joanie
Marlene, a wish for much success for your talented son! Keep us posted. Of course you were in shock last Christmas since Lisa had just passed. And as far as handling stress well or not, who wouldn\'t have anxiety. You have been through a lot. So happy Tina continues to heal from her operation. And Christmas with Cevyn and her Dad - wonderful. Lisa will be in the center of your love and family. I wish you a peacefilled holiday season. Love, Linda
We might as well...might as well have the happiest Christmas we can...this is our life now...I think because you are determined...you will succeed. Let us know about your son getting an agent...that is very exciting. Take care of you..love and hugs...Karen