Stress

I've been stressed alot lately. I'm still sleeping sorta ok but I just have too much to do. I paid off alot of bills/debt the other day, which is a relief, but I still often worry about financial stuff.

Alot of crazy things happened to some extended family on my mom's side last month. I'm really tired of people I barely know who barely know them asking me about it. A simple "I don't know." Isn't good enough for these nosey people. They're like "But aren't you related?" I'm related, technically, to nearly everyone in this town and most of my clients. My family is not clannish, it's too big and too much age difference. I don't even know how many aunt's and uncles I have, and most of them are dead anyway.

And I am sick and fucking tired of people asking me about shit on Facebook like I know what stupid people I don't even know post on there. I don't have a Facebook, never have. I have no use for it and am actually against it because it helps spread mass ignorance and also personal information that can be life damaging. But social media is so common place now that people can't comprehend that there are people who get along just fine without it. Whatever.

It just so happens that my mom has been made legally in charge of my relatives' situation--their finances, medical treatment, etc. Which means she is overwhelmed and super stressed out, which means I am even more stressed out because alot of this stuff falls on me because she can't physically or mentally do a lot. Or, when she does handle something, she can't be bothered to do anything else, so I'm picking up a lot of extra slack at home, hence the posts about the dump meals, etc, trying to save time.

My fiance has been working 6 days a week instead of 5, so he is even less help than usual. He is working later hours too so not much help with the shopping either. I barely get to spend any time with him in the evenings before he passes out. And he is too busy at work to text much. This is temporary tho.

I am getting trained in yet another job at work which will earn me an extra personal day every month. I will have to work an extra day every month for just 4 hours tho.

Today I really got irritated with my mom because she came into my work trying to get me to help her with some things that I really didn't feel comfortable doing. I don't even want to go home. I'm afraid she will ridicule me for having someone else help her at my job. I get really nervous doing anything in front of my mom. Performance anxiety maybe.

I plan to do some half off shopping therapy at Goodwill later for spring clothes. I won't feel guilty if it's cheap.