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I wish that I could tell my friends and family about what happened to me. I don't want to get that look of pity. My shame is big enough and I don't need others to add to it. My goal is to stop drinking so much but it's the only thing that keeps my mind off of this.
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Even though it may seem difficult, you don\'t have to tell your family until you are ready. Focus on yourself and your health, and when the time is right, you can divulge what happened.
Today is my attacker\'s birthday. Since we have mutual friends everyone is getting together and having a party. I swear I want to smash his head into the wall. Only one of my friends knows what happened and I just wan this day to be over.
I am becoming more aware of my feelings and actions. I woke up very lonely this morning and finished up a bottle of Raspberry Vodka. I was to afraid to go out on the town last night so I stayed home. I woke up feeling sorry for myself and I was drunk by 8. I keep having flashbacks of that animal touching me and breathing on me. I really want to stop reliving this nightmare.