Strange day

 
Today the day started horribly. Got AF in full force and had to look after my nephews for the morning which was hard as all I could think of was how come my baby is not here... Then I had to go and claim some stuff from my health fund, which was awful as all I saw the whole time was pregnant women or women with young babies or women with children absolutely everywhere I looked. It was like some weird kind of bring your baby to the shopping mall day. At one point I thought I was just going to break down and cry right there and then and just put my head down and kept focused on the floor as I walked around the mall.
 

 
 

I got home exhausted only to have DH tell me that we had been invited by his friend to a trivia night and he had already accepted on our behalf.... I almost couldn't handle it, I felt like screaming! However, I knew that I really should try and go as it meant a lot to him.
 

In the end I am glad I did. While it was hard at the beginning, particularly when as soon as we walk in we were told that the 'lucky door price' was photos shoot for 'a family portrait', but slowly I got into the rhythm of things and was able to enjoy myself.
 

Now it is 11.30 and I am almost ready to sleep. And for the first time in ages I feel like going to bed and enjoying the feeling rather than dreading it.