straightening myself out DAY 1
Well today is a fresh new day , I am work right now, I guess I feel a little better today, and just for today I will not gamble, I figure if I set up a plan for the day and I know I have things that need to be done at home, and I would like to play catch up with some movies, I gotta go now I will sign on later. I want to thank everyone for your support, and comments on my journals. Hugs,Mindy
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(((mindy))) we are not stupid. we are not. I know that *I* am not a stupid woman...I did, however, somehow..get pulled into this...it was subtle...it took over my thoughts...and then my body without my even realizing it....and now...it has a foothold. it\'s there..in my head...a part of me...it appears that it WILL always be there...like \'they\' say....but I am learning tools...to protect myself from it...I KNOW that...it can and will hurt me if I allow it to...so...I\'m educating myself...and I am changing my life...how I think...how I live...BUT
if I ever were to gamble again....it would NOT be because I am stupid...or weak...it would be because...this thing..addiction, whatever...is a part of me now...and for whatEVER reason, I allowed it to have control.... it is SAD...it is PAINFUL....it is BAFFLING...but it is NOT stupid....
I\'m glad you\'re feeling better....can you identify what went \'wrong\'? and...how you might protect yourself from similar circumstances in the future?
having the plan for the day is good :)
i like your goal..\'straighten myself out\'....been working on that one myself :)
Love,
Peg
Mindy, I am so glad you came back. It is hard to admit, but it happens. I feel so bad for you. You have the right attitude, come back and get on track! Name it, claim it, and let it goooooooo! Glad you are back, you can do this one day at a time, one minute at a time. The GA thing I suggest it, that is what finally helped me get the grip on this addiction I needede. For me it took it to a real person and created more of an accountability thing for me. I found at GA real caring people that truly understand! I am praying for you!
I am glad you are back also, we are here for you and glad to see you have not thrown in the towel. You are a fighter and a strong one to pick yourself up and face a new day with a positive goal in mind. Hugs
Mindy,
I am sorry you had a slip but you have come back with the right attitude. Move forward not backwards!! I hope you find a GA meeting close enough for you to attend. I Live in a rual area and have to drive about 1 to 11/2 hrs to attend. I attended regularly at first but I will admit I have not been going as much and I really need to. It does help alot but I also know It helps me alot to stay involved here as much as possible. Hang in there \"ODAAT\"
BIGGEST HUGS
Judy