Stop the world

 I am fed up with the journy,  I have been sober off and on for 40 years and can not put any time together.  AA?  Bah been there x 10.  Suicide? Tried that x2.  Can't live drunk can't live sober F**K!
 
My wife gave me a flashback through the records last night and I got FU by age 8.  Depression, pain whats the point!
 
JP