Stop. Just Stop.

Well,I still have the double vision, but its not as bad as it was yesterday it seems like its getting better even though i still have a headache and nausea everytime i wake up in the morning, which scares me to no end but im trying to ignore it. I feel like im losing my hearing but then again that could be from blasting my music and my anxiety combinded.I was thinking that maybe i should go outside and use my skateboard. I havent had the chance to use it because of the rainy weather and my really bad dizziness.Im wondering if i should just say "you know what im going to say fuck you to the dizziness and go outside and use my skateboard" because i cant stand being inside anymore.I mean i dont have much of a life sitting in front of the computer isnt the way i want to spend the rest of my life, it makes me feel completely worthless like i have no damned purpose.Myabe if i go out and skateboard, ill feel like i have a purpose in life, instead of sitting around on the internet feeling sorry for myself. Its not good for a 19 year old to do this to theirself anyways. Im the one that makes my life the living hell. when i could be out there having a good time, going shopping, going out, getting my GED, going to college making new friends, and hopefully finding a boyfriend. But i cant do that if im sitting here, in front of this computer screen straining my eyes to no fucking end. Which probably in time will make my double vision 10x s worse than it was before.I need to change things. and live my life to the fullest and stop worrying about things i cant do anything about at the moment. Take life one day at a time.I will start now. I think i will go get dressed, grab my skateboard, and go outside. Before i lose my mind sitting in front of the computer, which is like a dead battery in front of me, sense you're not really talking to anyone but a screen, if you think about it. THINK OUT OF THE BOX.