Still working on ME

Staying focused on looking after me.....recognizing when i am tired....when and what I should eat....taking care on my appearance....listening to my thoughts.....watching and feeling my addictions...but controlling them and considering the outcomes.....feeding my soul with a suzanne vega concert...a blast from the past! and just noticing that I'm breathing....and its not tight or breathless...just plain old breathing...the first time in a long time.
I heard some of the lyrics last night and thought of my university boyfriends who was wholesome guy.....who had no clue about my past
'how could i expect you
to contain
all of my pain......'