4 weeks since I completed my first 2 infusions of Rituxan. I continue to feel like crap, lots of pain, no energy and insomnia. Hands swollen, feet hurt like crazy and I wonder if I will ever feel better. I am sick of crying, I am sick of feeling like crap. I want my house to be clean and I want to be able to enjoy my grandkids. I am sick of crying, I am sick of pain and I am sick of waiting and hoping that it will kick in. I see Doc Miller on 9/1 and I hope he allows me to increase my Prednisone. I am also gonna ask him for something to help me sleep. Some days I honestly pray that I don't wake up..if I was lucky enough to be asleep anyway. Not that I would do anything but.....I can see how frustrating it can be. I hate being Mrs negative all the time but how can I be anything other than that when it feels like there is an ice pick jabbing into the palm of my hand.