Still tired. :)

I'm still tired, so very tired, both physically and emotionally.
I love my Daughter with all of my heart, but since she has been born I have had no social life.  My friends are still my friends, but I no longer feel a part of the group, I'm an outsider now.
They have their own in jokes that I don't understand and they don't explain them, I feel completely left out. 
 
My working day is:
 
520am Wake up
630am Leave for work
400pm Head to the childminders through horrific traffic
5-530pm Pick up Lily (Daughter) and head home.
600pm Make Dinner for Lily
830pm Lily goes to bed
1100pm I go to bed.
 
That is it, there is no excitement there, from 830pm to 11pm, I'm exhausted.  I don't know what to do anymore except that I'm nearly in tears writing this at work.  And I feel like I did when I was cutting myself last.
 
I live away from my family in a different country, now it's only about an hr and 45 mins flight away, but it's expensive, more expensive than I can afford.  So I sit in my house watching my Daughter and I go to bed physically tired and wake up emotionally tired.  :(