Still the same...

I am not experiencing any difference in my mood lately..usually I feel anxious, and paranoid most of the time with some breakthroughs into the almost normal range.  Here lately I've had no changes, I just feel bad all the time.  I can't remember anything either, or when I go to talk about something it totally slips my mind on what it was I was going to say.  I have a feeling on Monday, my meds are going to be changed again...I'm scared about that, because I don't want to get any worse than what I'm alredy experiencing.  If I can even feel any worse...why is this happening?  i must be crazy, because I have never felt this scared before going to see my Doctor.  Hopefully she'll have some things to add, but I sometimes think she just tries to push all the new medication on me for some sort of reimbursement.  I don't know if she has my true feelings on her mind anymore or if she ever did??  Just really worried about this weeks appointment, and how it's going to turn out.