Still Stuck

I had plans on starting out first thing to go get 2 new scripts issued from nearby physicians. I slept on and off with tv so got a late start and while first on my phone with my game I won like a zillion free lives/time so I could not refuse. Then of course was beating myself up for wasting time and decided to get all my info together for tomorrow morning.  (Part of the reason I dread this is because the pharmacy is one of my stops. I was told my coverage is much better for the meds and they are to REIMBURSE me for the overpayment of drugs since Sept 1st. I am just worried they will not do it.) Again I have put off the vacuuming and floors. 

I believe I do this simply because I feel too depressed (or uninspired) to care. I also realize that my father did the same exact thing. Every night he plans for the next day. The next night he beats himself up because he did not get all  (sometimes hardly any) of it done.I think back and know my Mom was often in tears because she was ignored or never helped.  Is it any wonder I am a sad mess. 

I try to draw from some strength and courage I occasionally find and have faith and hope. This is seeming to be so hard for me right now. I am glad to be here as I seem to feel I am facing so much all alone. 

I got a text from the salon. I forgot all about taking sis to get her hair cut. I was able to get an appt for next week. (Hopefully that will not give her time to drive us all nuts requesting another appt. (She has gone so far back I don't think she is even aware or would remember to call)  

I did get all my ducks in a row and have my info ready for my stops and errands in the morning. It hoping it will be better.