Still Struggling

Well, I got to the dermatologist every two weeks now.  I don't know if the Keflex is working or not because I still see these ugly scars and have this oily leakage.  If that isn't enough to mess up your day what is?  Was doing so research earlier and saw that this guy got cancer from long term hs.  Wow!  This thing is scarier than I thought.  Everyone at my job keep suggesting I go on disability.  I'm 26 and I'll be 27 Monday!  I can't sit at home and wait for a check!  Fixed income!  I would go complete insane.  I have to prove this people wrong but I'm starting to feel stupid for showing up to work with a Lortabs still making me wobbly.  I actually feel yesterday while coming up the steps.  Even the kids knew I wasn't quite right.  They can be such assholes at work, that is, my supervisor.  They knew I wasn't feeling well but they don't care.  Long as they get to leave early at my expense, they are A-ok. 
 
I have a new job.  Really community oriented.  I love it but I don't start until next month.  Summer is nearly here.  The Alabama heat is just what I dread having hs.  I hope this salve stuff work cause I really don't wanna be at the office smelling like hot dog water.  God help me.