Still Sober Day 6.

I have a lot of Trust issues.  It's hard to trust people in the light of knowing that at heart we are all sinners.  Trusting people can break your heart but it can also provide life for yourself.  I always have a hard time, it seems easier to live in a phantom like presence  where I have blocked all.  I'd be kidding myself to say that I'm not thinking about acting out in some way.  The women with all of their clothes and some dressed like hookers, whether they are or not doesn't matter because the problem resides in my own heart.  They are probably in equal amounts of pain and abandonement that I often feel anyway so why would I judge them?