still sober

I have 14 months sober and the cravings aren't as bad.  I get so frustrated because I keep thinking maybe I can drink one more time.  The last time I got a drink-it lasted for 2 years.  I keep trying to rationalize why I should drink, maybe I won't like it as much this time and I will realize I don't have a problem.  I know this is crazy thinking and I try to not let it rule my head.  I think I might not even be an alcoholic maybe just an alcohol addict-is there a difference?