Still scared.

I saw my PCP on Monday and she gave me a prescription for fluoxetine as well as lorazipine because I'm really depressed.  I see my neurologist on Monday.  I've been trying to get myself out of the house because my Dr. said to live my life.  I had two trips planned:  one in FL in mid March and one Williamsburg in Apr.  My problem is I can't chew very well right now so I don't want to go.  I check my pulseox frequently and it's generally 95 or higher so I can breathe.  I'm looking forward to my neuro and hope he'll put me on prednisone since my eye is giving me some problems.  I went to a play last night and I took the Mestinon as soon as I walked into the theater.  My eye drove me nuts during the show (Newsies was good in case anyone sees it).  I am so tense all the time I can't stand it and I feel like such a baby.  I was supposed to have lunch with my cousins today but I'm not going because the thought of lunch turns my stomach.  I bought Boost because I can stand that and I won't starve.  Both of my cousins are breast cancer survivors and I know they've gone through something horendous also but I know my words will slur and I won't be able to each much and that will make them concerned and I hate to talk about it.  I'm counting the days until Monday in the hopes the Dr. can tell me what the heck is going on.  In the meantime, I think I'll take another walk even if it gives me a migraine.