still pregnant and everybody goes crazy

So i am still pregnant. Thank God! 
my soon t be ex husband seems not very busy with his mistress... cuz e message me all the time how much he wishes that i lose the child. i dont get it. i told him i olny want the child. no money. not him´.. he doesnt need to be there for the child. its mine. my miracle! mine! so he got mad that i only care about the baby... hmm sure! about what should i care? a man that cheated on me and kicked me ot of OUR house ,pregnant, no where to go? i just cant care about that. i really just want the baby.. right now i am at my grandma´s but i cant stay her long. she is very special. she even asked  me why i want a baby from a man that doenst want me anymore. i have the opportunity to abort and be happy and free from my husband. i dont get it... why does no one understand how reall really bad i want this baby that grows in me???? it hurts so much... even my gradma :(  i kills me inside... and more and more i feell pain when she comes up with that...or when my husband message and insult me.. i hate it. i just want my baby. and with gods help i will ave it.

God bless you all. Thanks for reading