still nothing....
it is 6 am, and waiting to go to work. I miss Eric. For two years we have talked daily, and sent things back and forth, we've had good times and bad times. But doesn't everyone have that? isn't that normal?
I don't understand why if he really loves me this much, why and how... all this? He told my mom how much he loves me and wants to be with me but needs to ""think". '
Why is it that men do this to me? They all say it isn't me, but it with me. How can I not think it's not me. I know we had problems with getting together, but my god, things will come into place.
I knew he would get a job after 2 / 3 years..and he did! I am the only one that has faith in him. I am (and my mom) are the only ones that showed interested in him, and was real, but why then is he being this way to me?
I don't get it. I know I can go on and on about this, but it isn't going to make him call me or even e-mail me. I check every day to see if there is anything. and NOTHING.
what hurts, is that he KNEW what I had been through, and promised me that he wouldn't do this to me. That he loved me so much ! I still love him . He knew how much it hurt when his x didn't want to be with him. I would NEVER do this to him. Never.. I met my prince.
I will go on because I have to. I am getting ready to move to my daughters, and soon all I will have is my cell phone. no house phone. I still have my job, and as soon as I get settled, I will start looking for another job. that is all I can do. Just stay busy. and maybe one day he will call me and tell me he loves me and doesn't want us to end. MY GOD, we have 2 years invested here,,, I know long distance is hard, but life is hard. They say good things come to those who wait. so I guess I will wait, and wait....
We were making plans this spring to move into togther somewhere. and now this.. It hurts because I am the only one he could talk to , besides my mom. we are the only ones that he can be himself with.
I can't help but wonder, why now? he says there is no other women, or isn't wanting to... but it sure is odd if there isn't.
I am not going to see anyone, because I know where I want to be. and yes, one day if he really isn't going to want this with me, I will have to face it. I will never understand it, because he was my best friend too. I will do my best never to trust another man again. My last one did this crap to me, and now the one guy that i never thought would. If days and weeks go by and he still isn't calling or writing, then I can only asume he has someone else. and I am sooooo done trust men.
I guess I wouldn't be the first that has been hurt by men and never again had another relationship. but we had plans , so many plans to do things and go see things. We found we have new interest together.
well, so I guess I will give him his time for now to do his "thinking" that drives me nuts when people say that.. if they really love someone. I know he isn't used to ahve someone really love and care about him. but I do.
well I better get going. I am always checking my phone to see if there are any missed calls or messages..nothing.. my heart just drops..
I need to get this place packed up and get out of here. then I will get my reseme online so I can find a place to start over. maybe not anywhere around here. This place here has been nothing but heartach for me.
off to work...
I don't understand why if he really loves me this much, why and how... all this? He told my mom how much he loves me and wants to be with me but needs to ""think". '
Why is it that men do this to me? They all say it isn't me, but it with me. How can I not think it's not me. I know we had problems with getting together, but my god, things will come into place.
I knew he would get a job after 2 / 3 years..and he did! I am the only one that has faith in him. I am (and my mom) are the only ones that showed interested in him, and was real, but why then is he being this way to me?
I don't get it. I know I can go on and on about this, but it isn't going to make him call me or even e-mail me. I check every day to see if there is anything. and NOTHING.
what hurts, is that he KNEW what I had been through, and promised me that he wouldn't do this to me. That he loved me so much ! I still love him . He knew how much it hurt when his x didn't want to be with him. I would NEVER do this to him. Never.. I met my prince.
I will go on because I have to. I am getting ready to move to my daughters, and soon all I will have is my cell phone. no house phone. I still have my job, and as soon as I get settled, I will start looking for another job. that is all I can do. Just stay busy. and maybe one day he will call me and tell me he loves me and doesn't want us to end. MY GOD, we have 2 years invested here,,, I know long distance is hard, but life is hard. They say good things come to those who wait. so I guess I will wait, and wait....
We were making plans this spring to move into togther somewhere. and now this.. It hurts because I am the only one he could talk to , besides my mom. we are the only ones that he can be himself with.
I can't help but wonder, why now? he says there is no other women, or isn't wanting to... but it sure is odd if there isn't.
I am not going to see anyone, because I know where I want to be. and yes, one day if he really isn't going to want this with me, I will have to face it. I will never understand it, because he was my best friend too. I will do my best never to trust another man again. My last one did this crap to me, and now the one guy that i never thought would. If days and weeks go by and he still isn't calling or writing, then I can only asume he has someone else. and I am sooooo done trust men.
I guess I wouldn't be the first that has been hurt by men and never again had another relationship. but we had plans , so many plans to do things and go see things. We found we have new interest together.
well, so I guess I will give him his time for now to do his "thinking" that drives me nuts when people say that.. if they really love someone. I know he isn't used to ahve someone really love and care about him. but I do.
well I better get going. I am always checking my phone to see if there are any missed calls or messages..nothing.. my heart just drops..
I need to get this place packed up and get out of here. then I will get my reseme online so I can find a place to start over. maybe not anywhere around here. This place here has been nothing but heartach for me.
off to work...
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