Still not sober but thinking about going to AA meeting online and on person

I am still not sober and want to be very badly. I know that I can do this as I have done it before. I just need to put one foot in front of the other and make my decision and stick with it. I live with my ex-husband who is also an alcoholic. I currently am drinking about a six pack a day. Very anxious about it but anxious about quitting also.