Still not decided

Thought this is what I wanted, but now can't seem to make a decision.  I don't know if it is good to think with my heart instead of my head or now.  I have always been one to think with my head and actual figures, not my heart.  And I decided I should go with my heart.  I know that the machinery my husband fought so hard to pay more is worth more this year then next, but It really doesn't matter to me until I start thinking about what is going to support me with all the livestock gone.  I thought the farm manager was just a bit too easy to get along with.  I don't trust him as far as I can see him.  What happens if it all fails and I loose alot of money??? I guess that they can't eat me.  But I hate to loose what my husband worked so hard for.  More later