Still Not Better
Today I had a mini-freak out. I'm still not fully over it, but it's not as bad as it was earlier. I was rocking back and forth in bed, and I had Geo come lie with me so I had someone there. He didn't sleep well last night, so he ended up falling asleep and taking a nap once I felt better. It kinda came back when I was watching TV with dinner, but I just got lost in the show and it went away. It wasn't the same as before, when I couldn't control my thoughts. I could stop shaking if I wanted to, and sometimes I did. Sometimes I just let myself go because it's hard to keep yourself under control for a long time. It feels good, too, sometimes to just rock back and forth. Yeah, it might look crazy, but it feels good. You just have to go with what feels good sometimes. I wish I could say I was better, but I'm getting there. I didn't lose control of my thoughts, and that's good. I'm really tired now, and I think I'm going to keep this short.
Food today was good... I was actually in my calorie range for once, and I ate the right amount of carbs and protein. I was low on fat, but that's okay... I've been eating a lot of fat lately, so it's okay to have one day when I don't eat a lot of it. I'm still hungry, but I don't have much to eat that would keep me in my calorie range. I weighed myself today, for my official weight of the week, and I'm at 219.5 pounds. That made me happy... maybe I can get to 215 sooner. I think it's partially me shedding the water weight from the hospital. I also went for a walk today, and walked pretty fast. I only did 0.8 of a mile, but I walked it at a pace of 25 minutes a mile. That's pretty good for me. I had taken a nap today, and when I woke up I went for the walk. I didn't want to go, but forced myself to. Tomorrow I'm going to try and do at least the whole 1.2 miles that is my normal walk. I'm going to start training again for a 5k, since I can't walk that far anymore. I should be able to push myself farther and faster than I did the first time I trained for it, but I just have to be careful not to go too far too fast.
Food today was good... I was actually in my calorie range for once, and I ate the right amount of carbs and protein. I was low on fat, but that's okay... I've been eating a lot of fat lately, so it's okay to have one day when I don't eat a lot of it. I'm still hungry, but I don't have much to eat that would keep me in my calorie range. I weighed myself today, for my official weight of the week, and I'm at 219.5 pounds. That made me happy... maybe I can get to 215 sooner. I think it's partially me shedding the water weight from the hospital. I also went for a walk today, and walked pretty fast. I only did 0.8 of a mile, but I walked it at a pace of 25 minutes a mile. That's pretty good for me. I had taken a nap today, and when I woke up I went for the walk. I didn't want to go, but forced myself to. Tomorrow I'm going to try and do at least the whole 1.2 miles that is my normal walk. I'm going to start training again for a 5k, since I can't walk that far anymore. I should be able to push myself farther and faster than I did the first time I trained for it, but I just have to be careful not to go too far too fast.
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I hope you get back to feeling good real soon. Just give yourself some time.
Good job on the food intake and the weight loss. You are doing great . Have a Happy Easter.