Still Here !!

So tell me ...how many of us are still here....that haven't gambled yet.  I raise my hand.  I know its only like 10 days for me but I'm really sticking to it.  My relative called me last night and asked me to go out with her this weekend.  I said no.  I told her I was tired of losing money.  Maybe if I had won more, I might be worse than I am.  I know all about triggers and wishing I had won and not the next person.   I've been there ....but I'm determined this time.  The amounts I have spent have made me sick and maybe to some of you, it's not even that bad, but to me it is.   I was asked out to dinner last week by a group of co-workers and had to refuse because of no money.  I had to pull some strings just to pay the rent this month.  I guess that's the reason I'm so turned off gambling this time.  I never want to get myself in this position again.