Still hanging
Well I am still hanging in with not picking back up the bottle. I have to be honest and admit that tonight has been hard. I have been wanting a drink really bad tonight. I have hit a bottom or something tonight. I would really like to just curl up in a ball, go to sleep and not wake up tomorrow or ever again. Then I wouldn't have to worry about staying sober or dealing with BP or anything else. I didn't pick up though. I really don't want to die drunk. I want people to be able to say to me......at least she died sober. I guess this should be a little bit happier since it is a positive goal update but I am just not happy today. I was up this morning a little aggitated but still up and tonight has been one big thud. Anyway.......I am still sober.
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You GO GIRL.. 38 days. I know that cannot be easy, my friend. Trust God and find friends you can trust..God will provide. If He provided a ram to be sacrificed, water and food for the wandering, starving Israelites, then provided wine for a wedding thousands of years later, He doesn\'t exclude you SwtLdyLvr... won\'t you reach out to Him who loves you. Remember, He\'s promised to never ever abandon you in this life.
I\'m here if ya ever want to talk, too.. :-)
God loves you, you\'re His \'little girl.\'
I\'m still praying for ya..
Your doing so well,I\'m sorry I haven\'t been around much,I\'m trying my best to cope with things,but not doing the best of jobs.
I think about you alot even though I might not show it,Take care and keep up the good work