still here....

It's been over two years now and I'm still here.  I have nothing to show for the last two years of my life except for more pain, suffering and heartache.  The trial continues as it's still justice for the criminals.  I'm nearly dead inside except for the pain of now knowing that my daughter suffered more than she said.  I knew it.  I told the police and social services and her therapist that my husband had gotten away with this for way too long.  I knew he had undoubtedly progressed with his evil deeds.  It has taken over two years to hear it and the pain is tearing me to pieces.  I deserve the pain and madness.  She does not, but I do.  I should have known and I will ive with that forever...