still going

Has been a few days since my last journal entry. Still going ok so far. I feel as though I am opening up to my wife more and more. Things that I would normally avoid talking about, I am now discussing. I say honestly what I am thinking or feeling about things. I don't try to avoid subjects, and don't get all defensive and jumpy anymore. I am taking these as all being positive signs. I hope that a new me is starting to become the norm, one that is honest. I have faced a few moments now where I could have lied about something, but I have kept to it and been honest. Not to say it has been easy, it hasn't, and it isn't. My first reaction to lie is much more comfortable and convenient than saying how things actually are, but then when is doing the right thing ever easy. It isn't, but it is right, and that is what I need to remember and keep foremost in my mind.