Still gone
I've made it for 19 hours away from him. I have so much to figure out. I know one thing for sure this morning. At this moment, I don't want to go back. I really don't want to go back. I am so thankful for knowing this right now. I wish I could believe that feeling won't change, but I know it will. I am addicted to this screwed up man. I cannot fix him. I accept this. But maybe I can fix me.
Today I have an appointment with a counselor at the crisis center.
Today I will find a better motel room for tomorrow night.
Today I will call my best friend and ask her for her help.
That's enough for today.
Today I have an appointment with a counselor at the crisis center.
Today I will find a better motel room for tomorrow night.
Today I will call my best friend and ask her for her help.
That's enough for today.
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You can do this, you sound so strong keep going. I am impressed you are even functioning! Keep it up and keep moving forward, no more looking back. Again, remember what I said, you\'ll KNOW when it\'s time, no one can tell you differently. Each time you have gone back, even though it feels like a step back it is really giving your more courage for the next time. I remember during my first marriage and all of the times I wanted to leave but didn\'t, each time I got to that point, I was stronger and more sure of my decision than the time before so even though I didn\'t leave all of the times I really wanted to, it was just paving my way to the time when I did decide to end my marriage and I was able to do just that. Although I wasn\'t abused physically it was more emotional and for the most part I was not afraid of mine like you are but I totally understand the wanting out desire. Although I have my ups and downs (who doesn\'t?) I never regretted my 1st divorce, I found life again, I found love again, I found myself again and so will YOU!
Your post is amazing and your last sentence says it all \"That\'s enough for today\" One day at a time girl, you can do this!
Good for you for everything you have so bravely done already and for the 3 more things you are doing today, what great, valuable steps you are taking. Sending you strength and support!