still confused
After not hearing from you for almost 24 hours (a first since we've been together) you finally texted me that you'd slept most of the day and had to get up and do something today. I called you and you answered and seemed, well, not annoyed at hearing from me. We talked maybe 5 minutes and you said you'd "give me a buzz" later. If I hadn't called you would that text have been our only communication that day?
You never did "buzz" me. Remember last time you were in AZ? We never missed a "good morning" text, even though we were 3 hours apart--I'd send one to you and you'd respond when you got up. And when I texted you that I was going to bed you'd text me back--if not right away, at least sometime during the night so I'd see it in the morning. On weekends we agreed you'd call me when you went to bed, even if it was 3-4 am here? And we'd text throughout the day about what we were doing. And that was all fine then. Last time you were there you were working and busy, but still made time for me. Now? You're not even working yet. What happened?
I'm almost feeling that you're texting me the minimum you think you need to to keep me from getting upset with you. You should only know how upset I am. How lost I feel.
The past week and a half has been so hard for me. I know there are a lot of things going on, but I feel like you're not only geographically but emotionally distant from me. Maybe you're trying to spare my feelings, but it would be so much easier on me if you'd just TELL me it's over between us. I almost feel like you left me when you left NY--if I'd known I'd be that much further long in the healing. Please, if it's over rip the bandaid off and let me start to heal.
I love you--I believed you when you told me you wanted me the rest of our lives. Why did you tell me the other day you loved and missed me, but then act like you could care less?
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You eventually texted back "good morning". I tried to call you, no answer, but you did call back a little later. Told me you were still exhausted and had taken it easy yesterday--planned to do the same today before work tomorrow. If you weren't doing anything you couldn't call me? Am I that stressful to you?
You rushed me off the phone because you wanted to get something to eat. Said you'd call later. Should I hold my breath? How long before my anxiety kicks up again?
You never did "buzz" me. Remember last time you were in AZ? We never missed a "good morning" text, even though we were 3 hours apart--I'd send one to you and you'd respond when you got up. And when I texted you that I was going to bed you'd text me back--if not right away, at least sometime during the night so I'd see it in the morning. On weekends we agreed you'd call me when you went to bed, even if it was 3-4 am here? And we'd text throughout the day about what we were doing. And that was all fine then. Last time you were there you were working and busy, but still made time for me. Now? You're not even working yet. What happened?
I'm almost feeling that you're texting me the minimum you think you need to to keep me from getting upset with you. You should only know how upset I am. How lost I feel.
The past week and a half has been so hard for me. I know there are a lot of things going on, but I feel like you're not only geographically but emotionally distant from me. Maybe you're trying to spare my feelings, but it would be so much easier on me if you'd just TELL me it's over between us. I almost feel like you left me when you left NY--if I'd known I'd be that much further long in the healing. Please, if it's over rip the bandaid off and let me start to heal.
I love you--I believed you when you told me you wanted me the rest of our lives. Why did you tell me the other day you loved and missed me, but then act like you could care less?
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You eventually texted back "good morning". I tried to call you, no answer, but you did call back a little later. Told me you were still exhausted and had taken it easy yesterday--planned to do the same today before work tomorrow. If you weren't doing anything you couldn't call me? Am I that stressful to you?
You rushed me off the phone because you wanted to get something to eat. Said you'd call later. Should I hold my breath? How long before my anxiety kicks up again?
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