Still circling the wagon

Last time I was on here things looked good. I had gone a week without drinking. It was a huge thing for me. I don't even remember how I slipped because it has been a few months now. Once I did I have been back on the destructive path I have had for years. The relationship between me and my wife has changed dramatically though. We actually have become closer. She found some of my empties again and she also found a poem I had wrote. She was pretty mad about the empties but I think reading that poem really changed the way she approached it. We have had a few getaway weekends together in the past few months and we have another two planned in october and november. If I could just quit drinking then our relationship would be even stronger. I know that the next time she finds the empties its not going to bring us closer but tear us apart, probably for good.