Still can\'t figure it out

Found out last night that Rayna is still in jail.  Why hasn't he called me?  Does he think that I am mad at him or is he just done?  Larry still believes that Spank isn't done with me.  He told me to let things straighten themselves out and things will be ok.  So does that mean Spank and I will have another chance or by then I won't want him back?  I hate waiting!!!  I want him back now! Without her around, maybe he will remember the good times we had and want to capitalize on them.  We could have been spending time together this past month and a half and he has only attempted to call me once and then there is the infamous "help me out call".  What is up with him? Is there someone else yet in the picture? He is the only thing that I even want for Christmas!  I just want to be able to love him and have him love me back.  Why is that too much to ask for?  I did send him a myspace message last night telling him that I seriously considered booty calling him this weekend but didn't think that he would be interested.  I just need to get laid right now and knowing that he is ssssoooo good at it and I don't have to be on the pill with him makes it even better.  He promised that we would be together again and the sex would be better than the last time we were together.  I wish he would make good on that promise this weekend.  I want so much to be with him again this Christmas.  I know i'll be setting myself up for disappointment, especially when she comes back to him.  Why can't he see that he has someone that is good for him that loves him unconditionally?  Does he think that he is not good enough? What can I say to him to make him realize that he is all I want and need.  I don't need material things, just his love and affection and to be with his kids again.  This is ssssooo killing me!