Still busy but hanging in there

Big apartment fire last night in Philadelphia.  Was told this AM to be prepared to pack  up and go up there at a moments notice.  Turns out we only had two people in the building insured with us.  I hear most of them were not insured at all.  SAD!  For like $125 to $150 per year, these people could have had $10,000 to $20,000 worth of coverage!  Anyway, I settled the first one over the phone and can't reach the second one so far.  Will try to settle that one over the phone tomorrow I guess if she calls me back.  So I have a feeling I will be really busy this week!  It will be this way really until the end of January, at least.  I will be on the road a lot I guess.  And this cold wet dreary weather is not helping me.   Have to start putting out the Christmas decorations this weekend.  My next door neighbor has their tree up and outdoor lights out already! I have been feeling like such a loser lately and not in a good way.  I feel tired and blah and I have been eating junk and eating for all the wrong reasons.  I am eating out of boredom and stress and anger and depression.  Not a good thing.  And I think "What the hell?"  And do it anyway.  Then the guilt hits.  I have got to get back in my routine.  I have to get up tomorrow early and get to the Y.  Ever since that cramp episode a few weeks ago, which scared the daylights out of me, I have not gone.  JM- the papaya enzyme has been working BTW.  I ate some leftover mac and cheese for lunch today and felt yucky.  Took one of those and felt better!  Have to start tracking everything again, religiously, like I was doing on Fitday.  Just cannot seem to find the motivation. My sister has lost 120 lbs now and is a size 10.  Never in my life has my sister ever been a size smaller than me.  Now that really depresses me. I know I have to do this for me.  I have to just get back on track.  Gained another lb.  Could be much much worse.  Oh well.  Wish me luck.  This is just such a rough time for me.