Stepson

 I have a written much but I thought that I would start putting into my journal some of my thoughts during this holiday season.  My son had to talk to me this morning, it was about his brother his business in for eight days now, A heroine addict.  He s been arrested lease a dozen times and it called his x girlfriend mother of his two kids  made some weird comments and she's panicked. 

 My son had access to his older brothers emails because his brother used to use his laptop so my son went on and looked on his email find a message from his mother.  A mother that never wishes him a happy birthday or merry Christmas or calls to see how her youngest son is doing.   Anyway, she wrote this note 2 oldest that he could do no wrong in her eyes, and that the youngest son and myself have my head so far up in the clouds and that we are to blame for the situation, and that she fled the country  for that reason. Which she failed to mention in the police report  is that she was looking up to seven years in jail for second extreme DUI and that she fled the country to avoid jail time.  My son who's OK or seems, OK is pissed off to say the least but is handling it quite well. I've sort of pre-warned him that if  his brother is indeed dead  his mother and freak out and could follow suit. And that he needs to prepare himself as it still is lurking in the shadows.  I'm so very thankful that he's a good kid going to college knows what he wants he trust me enough to tell me what's going on and to make really educated decisions off based off of facts and truth.  

 For myself, it's sad to see your mother do this, and I know it's the drugs, alcohol but still upsetting to watch someone spiral out of control I know where this is going to go.   It's interesting now that there is no pain. Just simply watching someone I would love for 20 years destroy themselves, it's a different perspective now that my emotions are out of it.