Step eight

I have fine tuned what I have so far. The next step is some 3D modeling. I am very pleased with what I have so far. I am just about finished. I think I am hitting all the right emotional notes and expressing exactly what I need to. I think my song choice, a mixture of both optimistic and melancholic tones, aptly conveys the sentiments of my coming out process and allows for some great syncing with the visuals. Not to mention the songs origins are quite geeky which suits me entirely (a large point I make in the video actually). I am so very, very close to being finished.
 
More importantly though, I am at peace. By making this project, I had to constantly live in the mindset of being open and letting my guard down. I found this mindset creep into my everyday life until eventually it saturated me. For the first time in my life, I don't hide myself when I meet new people. What is more, the idea of telling those already in my life no longer terrifies me. If anything, I am looking forward to telling them. Things won't be all fine and dandy, I will lose some people important to me, but I will be completely and 100% honest with myself. No more secrets. No more pain.

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Wow, I reading this I can feel your sense of accomplishment and excitment. I\'m really happy for you. Where are you going to post it? I want to see it. It sounds like you\'ve put a lot of work into it. - Ford
joe42909
joe42909

Ford,

The plan is to give my family a heads up to prepare, then Im uploading it to facebook (and here of course). I hate playing the in and out game with my sexuality. It\'s going to be my public (and final) outting.