Steak was great
You were not there like usual to cook them but Gregg did good. Eating it made me think of you, you were not there to see Donnie & Cassie get married but you were here to see them remet. It made me sad, I had to go chase maddox to pick me up.
Scott & Lisa left I cried so hard. I hate it here alone & mostly I am scared as jobs are tough to get, I can not do this, this winter here alone. And I do not know what to do. Its scary - its tough - I am trying not to worry but thats tough to do.
Going to try & sell tractor. I wish this place w/sell. I do not like it here anymore.
Scott & Lisa left I cried so hard. I hate it here alone & mostly I am scared as jobs are tough to get, I can not do this, this winter here alone. And I do not know what to do. Its scary - its tough - I am trying not to worry but thats tough to do.
Going to try & sell tractor. I wish this place w/sell. I do not like it here anymore.
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I can relate to what you are going through and how hard it is, the being alone..as I sit here all alone today on Labor Day..I think of past Labor Days and how we spent them. I am lucky enough to have a job that allows me to maintain my home but with all the chores with a home it is overwhelming. I do as much as I can and feel guilty with what isn\'t being done like my husband would have done. Sometimes when I am out there mowing the lawn or taking care of the pool I look up and ask why did he have to die..I like you don\'t put my life in the hands of God...I have to many questions and I am one of those people that needs to see things in black and white and not leave questions unanswered...I wish I could just say God will take care of me..but I really think I need to take care of myself and be a survivor...we will all come through this ...yes, with scars....but learning to live again...Hugs, Ellen
Oh, I feel so bad for you! So understand being overwhelmed and scared of going into another winter! Yet I see you also as very strong and resourceful. I know you will make it through. There is a better future out there for you; believe that. ((((HUGS)))) to you!
Julie
hold on Sweetie Pie - tomorrow is another day - something is right around the corner - just have faith. Vicki
boy, do I know that \"I hate this place\" feeling, it no longer is a rewarding dream, If you have options take them, if you can get away for a while do it, sometimes we need to take a step away to understand what we should do next. Being alone, is not a good place to be when you don\'t want it. I will pray that you get a buyer very soon.
Sending you a big hug. Hang in there. Life is so hard for us. We all have made it through this far. Hard to believe but we just keep plugging along. I pray you sell your place soon. Its tough not to worry I know. All we can do is whatever comes our way in any situation is to make the right decisions as best as we can. Some days are easier then others. You CAN do it! You already have come a long way. Hugs to you. Edie