Staying Informed II

Have I discovered yet another memory block from the early 70's to the mid 80's of my fanatical research to "Stay Informed?" As I quietly accept and observe my current OCD over the pandemic yaddah blahs, I am discovering that I cannot remember too awful many of the causes I championed before I started consolidating my obsessive research as a psych symptom. The summary of that psych symptom which stays with me today is, "Running to the future."

My daily search for clues on what to expect from the masked social distances remains quite compulsive, as does my search for uncensored evidence that I am not alone in my isolated confusion. There is ample evidence of the censorship in the form of bureaucratic summaries of the non-compliant, but attempts to discuss the strictly personal impact are being shut down quicker than a McCarthy Era raid on a Commie meetup. Comply or we will publically attack you with mean, assumptive names. No exceptions.

It be the tightening gut knots which have been alerting me to the fact that I have compulsively slid into this old pattern of behavior once again. For now, I am passively observing and processing. For now, the increasing gut pains and the unnoticed slide into "Staying Informed" on the masked antics of the day are the only clear symptom.