Starting to try this...

I am not very good at keeping a journal. I always have wonderful intentions of keeping one.  I have been trying to write down three things I am grateful for -- today's are: 1. Hair products, 2. New online friends (lifesavers they are), 3. College basketball ! 
It is snowing again here - it has been a horribly long winter.  The winter has added to my isolation.  I know I am isolating myself - I know it but I don't know what to do about it.  I am really shy - it is hard for me to be in public situations, I am so insecure with myself.  I am working on being okay for me.  That has been really tough.  Since I was a kid I've always felt second best or never good enough.... 
I always felt the only worth I had was by doing things for others, this has been hugely negative in my life.  I am working the steps, trying to get better.  I feel like I have a firm grasp on the first 3.. sometimes I slip up. But I am trying.  I have hope and faith.  Most of the time the only way I make it through the day is by faith... 
 
It will get better.. right???