Starting to go Hypomanic

Today I'm low on calories again. I just can't seem to get myself to eat enough. I'm kinda hungry now, but not for the chicken I have to eat. I don't know what I want. When I get like this, I just kinda wait until I get a craving and then eat what I'm craving. I'm really low on my carbs today, so I might have some spaghetti since I find that to be yummy. Tomorrow I'm going to go to see the volunteer guy, so wish me luck! Well, you don't have to, but you know what I mean. I got like 7 hours of sleep last night with a 3 hour nap and I feel okay. That's not a good sign, BlueToes. It means I might be going hypomanic. I can also kinda tell since my feet have not stopped doing a dance since I started writing this journal. I guess I'm going to spend this hypomania not hungry instead of the starving I normally get. Well, I guess it's for the best. I overate a lot before, so I have to make up for it somehow.
If my thoughts seem kinda jumbled, it's just the pre-hypomania talking. I was up until almost 2am last night, after taking 3mg of klonopin and NyQuil. I don't like taking the NyQuil, but it seems that it's the only thing to knock me out when I can't sleep. I don't like the idea of drinking alcohol to help me to sleep (which is in NyQuil) so I should stop doing it. I don't know if it's the alcohol in it or the rest of the stuff in it that makes it easier for me to fall asleep, but I do know that it does help get me over the edge when nothing else does. It turns off my brain when my brain is in overdrive. I lie in bed at night, thinking a million things at once, singing songs in my head (and when it progresses, out loud), having my feet twirl around each other endlessly, move from one side to the other, flip my my head from one end of the bed to the other, think about going to the couch to sleep since nothing else seems to work... just endless things about how I can get myself to sleep. Wednesday is going to be a sleep day, all I'm going to worry about is sleeping in and getting my walking done. I may choose to volunteer on Wednesday, but it won't be until later so I can try and get my sleeping balanced so I don't spiral out of control.
The last thing I want to do is start my volunteering with me having to take some time off because I've gone hypomanic or manic. That's not a good way to make a first impression, even more so since I would most likely be hospitalized in the clinic I'm going to be volunteering in. But the guy told me to come see him today or tomorrow and they are eager for me to start, so I guess I have to go in and see him. If I'm still hypomanic tomorrow, I'm just going to take a nap and tell them I will come in on Friday instead of Wednesday. You know what, I think I'm just going to do that. I will tell them that I will come in on Friday that way I can do my 5K on Wednesday and be able to tell my therapist on Thursday that I've made all this progress! I'm excited about doing my 5k, I was ready to do it earlier today and I should do it while I'm hypomanic and have the energy. 
Mood is high today... not the good kind of high, the "watch out" kind of high. I did manage to get a nap in, which is good, but I still think that I should have been able to sleep more last night. I do have things to do tomorrow morning, so I have to wake up early but I'm going to sleep in on Wednesday. Thursday I have therapy, so I have to wake up early then, but we will see how it goes from there. I have to pay for my therapy now. I talked to my therapist about talking about my emotions and coping skills rather than general conversation, since I want to get better and I don't know what else I need to do to get better. I don't want to talk about the PTSD stuff since I'm not in the kind of mental state where I can handle that right now. I'm doing good for the most part, but I need to be doing a really good kind of good to be able to confront that kind of stuff. 
There I go rambling again... I'm just going to end this before it becomes a 3 page long rant on nothing. Stress was low today, Food wasn't enough, mood was high and sleep was low. there.