Starting Small

     Today I have desided to start off small just do the little things first.  In the old days I could walk three miles of more a day.   Now I have to start with walking a cross my yard just so can make back to the house beefore the pain in my side sets in.   The hell that I faced at Sea World walking in that heat made realize how totally out of control my life is.    I gotten so fat I cannot even enjoy a walk with my family.   I on vacation.  I end up hating every minute of it and that is my fault.   Because I did this to my self.   So I,m the only person who can fix it.   I need to learn to love my self enough.   It not enough that other people love.   It is me who got into this situation.   The old fat family genes did not help.   But Being 390 pound is putting such a stress on my body.  I feed like a ninty year old.  I need to lose the weight before my body totally breaks down.