Starting Over = Patience

I look back in my life after 47 years and see how many times ive started over in new places.  But this recent doover has taken alot out of me.

Perhaps Im just tired of having to start over from nothing or maybe im just getting older and the resources are getting limited.  I know this last oppurtunity must work but its alot of responsibility.  And emotionally having this load right now is making me struggle.  I am lucky i have the roof over my head and trying not to

Screw things up.  Ill admit i wonder how i became such a trainwreck and why i continue to be.