Starting over... again!
So I just got my course materials for my CA real estate license... it's so motivating knowing that I even have these options and a future... life has been so difficult for me from an early age and I have struggled every step of the way but kept reminding myself that there are people always have it harder then I do. I feel like I am still waiting to fail, or the other shoe to drop at all times. I am just going to have to put everything I have in this opportunity. If I want to do something else, or go back to school, I can on the side, but right now, my mind needs to be 100% focus on succeeding in real estate. My bio dad and uncle seem super excited to get me on board, apparently they have a ton of busy work they really need help with. Anyway...
Dex, my abusive ex slash part time boyfriend slash best friend, went out of town for the weekend and let me stay at his house... this is kind of a big deal because he would not have trusted me a few months earlier, and definitely a year ago. It is kind of lonely there without him! I really am going to miss him, no matter what we have been through, he has never completely turned his back on me, nor have I on him. It will be interesting to see how things go 6 months from now... I can't imagine dating anyone else, or him dating someone new. Even though I know that's inevitable. I truly think it is going to take us being 2000 miles apart for us to let go. Really let go.
My sister talked to my birth dad and apparently it went really well. I have been very apprehensive about letting any of my adoptive family here contact my newfound biological relatives in CA, but thought it was the right thing to do, and it was. I just want everyone to be genuinely happy and excited for me, and it seemed that was not happening.
I can not wait to leave my job here. It is awful on a few different levels. I am trying to remain grateful and motivated but its a daily struggle. It's a dead end job, that pays barely over minimum wage and I have to deal with the snobbiest, richest people of Dallas. It is what it is, on to bigger and better things! One more hour of work and then a whole two days of relaxing and renting movies. I am trying really hard to lose weight and on my days off am doing two a days of cardio and no more pizza!!! ah that sounds good just typing it. After losing weight I am going to quit smoking. Life is so promising for me right now, not sure why I am still struggling with some depression.
Hope everyone is doing well!
Dex, my abusive ex slash part time boyfriend slash best friend, went out of town for the weekend and let me stay at his house... this is kind of a big deal because he would not have trusted me a few months earlier, and definitely a year ago. It is kind of lonely there without him! I really am going to miss him, no matter what we have been through, he has never completely turned his back on me, nor have I on him. It will be interesting to see how things go 6 months from now... I can't imagine dating anyone else, or him dating someone new. Even though I know that's inevitable. I truly think it is going to take us being 2000 miles apart for us to let go. Really let go.
My sister talked to my birth dad and apparently it went really well. I have been very apprehensive about letting any of my adoptive family here contact my newfound biological relatives in CA, but thought it was the right thing to do, and it was. I just want everyone to be genuinely happy and excited for me, and it seemed that was not happening.
I can not wait to leave my job here. It is awful on a few different levels. I am trying to remain grateful and motivated but its a daily struggle. It's a dead end job, that pays barely over minimum wage and I have to deal with the snobbiest, richest people of Dallas. It is what it is, on to bigger and better things! One more hour of work and then a whole two days of relaxing and renting movies. I am trying really hard to lose weight and on my days off am doing two a days of cardio and no more pizza!!! ah that sounds good just typing it. After losing weight I am going to quit smoking. Life is so promising for me right now, not sure why I am still struggling with some depression.
Hope everyone is doing well!
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