Starting Over

With all the problems I have had it has been over a month since i've seen my rhumy.
He has no clue of all the problems I have had. Now His office manager wants me to compile another list of questions, symptoms. I really don't feel like doing it. I have sent updates via email this whole time. Obviously he hasn't read them. When he gave me his email address he told me I couldn't send pictures. So I would post my ugly pictures here and he could also read my journal to keep up. He thought it was a great idea. Neither doctor has ever looked. And now they want me to write it all down again. I want my mom or dad. I want someone to hold my hand and say its ok. and deal with these people before i go nuts.