Starting again!

Back to day 1 but I'm not giving up!! I hate how I feel! My chest hurts from coughing and hacking so much and I feel really shaky and fidgety. I'm afraid to eat! Every time I do, I want to smoke at's just not worth it to me cause I already don't like to eat. UGH! It seems like I'm never gonna get it! This is harder that getting off crack!!