start chemo soon

This is Sat, I start my chemo this Wed and Thur.  Most days I feel like I'm ready and just want to get started so I can get it over with.  Some days I'm just a scared little girl who just wants to go to bed and sleep.  I will be getting "via a pick line", 6 months every other week of oxaliplatin, lucovorin & 5-FU, while wearing a take home pump both nights.  I'm stage 3.  So I'm trying to get myself prepared mentally and physically, I know God will help me through this mess, but I'm still nervous.