ssdd

we all know what 'ssdd' stands for so I won't expand. suffice it to say that things are not getting better just different. my dog has been sick and while she is getting better (thank God, Krishna and Santa Claus), she is still leaving little messies around the appartment. i was up at 5am today just cleaning up after her. anyways, no more treats for a while and hopefully that will take care of that. my 'boyfriend', and the jury is still out on whether i should call him that, lost one of his dogs last weekend. it was very sad and he took it very hard but she was suffering from a serious infection and it was just her time. i try not to think about it because i will just burst into tears. but believe me it doesn't take that much these days - i am right on the edge, like all the time. the other day i cried at a stupid commercial about who knows what stupid thing. my 'best friend' keeps making plans with me and then bailing out at the last minute so the last time she tried to make plans i hesitated to accept and just left it at "maybe, we'll see". she called me up in tears and left a vm - i don't pick up the phone anymore - and she sounded like somebody had died so i called her back right away. as it turns out she and her husband had a fight about the upgrades to a new house they are purchasing and she proceeded to boo-hoo about having to 'sacrifice' by buying cotton underwear so that they could afford the upgrades. WTF is wrong with cotton skivies? the last time we went shopping together and she bought underwear, we had to go to a specific shop and deal with a specific sales lady and she spent about $600 on freaking underwear! well excuse the f**k out of me for not wearing my gown and tiara for underwear shopping. that's it i guess - i'm changing the 'mark this entry as' from general update to venting and then i'm going to the loo to cry.