split personality

Lately ive been feeling split between laughing and smacking him til i feel better.Im glad i finally realized what has been going on and refuse to be his -or anyone elses- victimanymore.I feel strong and clear in my goal and then he will try another tactic.I will let him know he is pushing my boundries AGAIN and he will pull back and try to regroup.No matter what he says or how he says it i have the same answer GET OUT GET DIVORCE GET HELP AND THEN MAYBE I'LL LOOK AT YOU IN A YEAR BUT NOW I DONT TRUST YOU.  YOU KILLED THAT AND I MAY NOT TRUST YOU IN A YEAR BUT THATS THE BEST YOU'LL GET OUT OF ME AND IF YOU PUSH YOU WONT GET THAT!I try to always say what i mean and mean what i say to be a good role model for my kids and show them how to handle what and who comes at them in life.I wont go through the whole chain yanking things he tried last night to show me he changed (yeah right) but i heard everything he wasnt saying and how he tried to minimalize the things he admitting to, did i mention these are the things he SAID he told the pastor he is talking to?So no, no, and pardon my french HELLL NO i wont let him stay and work it out. I cant stand to by touched by this man I wont be his prayer partner (what a joke) and stop saying you love me every 3 minutes. I dont buy it.Well im smiling one minute because he is so funny and, want to slap him the next til he gets sense (which he really needs.So here i am.