Spiral

A feeling of hopelessness Takes me over again I’ve been here before I know what to expect I spiral downwards Into the abysmal pit Of hatred Of fear I tread these angry waters I try to escape Much like before But this hell will stop at nothing Until it has consumed me So I sit and I wait For the storm to pass Trying only to maintain some control Some ability to survive To address the day And all of its trials There is no fighting this feeling There is no escaping its grip I’m overtaken The world presses down on my shoulders I try to save it I try to save myself But I can’t I’m consumed This disease eats away at everything I am At everything I strive to be At all of my goals All of my dreams All of my love Til there is nothing left Nothing but ambivalence and servitude To this demon, my blackness Evil lives in me It consumes me I am lost to its grip Lost to its strength Weakened Revival becomes a distant dream Just out of reach Finally the moment will come I will reach out and grasp it Ignite the revival of my soul Restart the cycle Again I stand Again I fall